Agonizing wait...

Nothing beats waiting for something to happen...

So far, no news on my scholarship... Every night I waited anxiously for a phone call from my dad, telling me that the final confirmation letter has been received. Yet, for the past few weeks, my wait was in vain...

The sense of helplessness is really eating me up.. I hate it when I have to rely on someone for something.. Never like the feeling of 'depending' on someone to get what i want..

That's one of the reason why I like to walk from one place to another (so I dont have to wait for the transportation, since my feet IS the mode of transport), like to play MMORPG that is solo-able (so I dont have to party with other players whom I dont know, since I can do things my own way on my own time), like to watch movies at home (so I dont have arrange for a convenient time to watch the show since I can watch it anytime I want), etc.

Really hope the letter will come soon... At least let me know if I've gotten it or not, just give me an answer, GO or NO GO... unlike now, left hanging in the air.. With this uncertainty, I can barely plan for anything! Dont want to apply for new jobs as I do not want to go thru all the usual interviewing stuff when I wont even be able to take up the jobs. Everything now is in standstill, at least until after Chinese New Year or after I received the letter, whichever earliest...

Pray hard that I will get the response I wanted... PLEASE!!!

无常

今早，如往常，下了巴士顺手拿了份免费的《我报》，很快地瞄了瞄所列的标题，突然看到了台湾一名女星车祸逝世的消息，非常错鄂。虽然她不是我所喜欢的女星之一，但一个如此有生气、活力、才华的年轻人就那么地离开了人间，真的无法不承认世事无常。年仅28岁的她虽然已为台湾娱乐圈带来了不少电影电视作品，但她那还未展现的音乐素养及热忱，观众已无缘欣赏。。

就算到了现在深夜时分，心情仍然非常地沉重，一股悲哀的思绪久久挥之不去。心里总觉得老天爷似乎喜欢开这一类的玩笑，三不五时地给我们一些当头棒喝的事件，其用意是什么，耐人深思。。也许是老天爷用心良苦，想告诉我们要珍惜眼前的一切，应知足惜福，事事都该全力以赴以免将来后悔。所以我会以自己快乐与否来决定如何度过我的每一天，不能使自己快乐的事尽量不为之。当然我不会毫无顾虑的暴饮暴食或是放纵自己，毕竟我还必须为自己负责任。

New Year.. Old friends..

Met up with two of my old friends for tea/dinner just now.. YP and Irene..

I've known them for as long as I was in Singapore, which is 12 years and counting.. We met up in YP's condo in Newton. Sat down and looked thru YP's wedding photos, since both Irene and me had missed her wedding due to one reason or another.. YP looked so beautiful in her gown and CK was very dashing in his suit. They make a very compatible couple.. and now they are expecting their first baby!! Congrats!!!

Although we havent met for a long while, we are able to pick up where we left and continue to update each other on the events and happenings in our lives. Irene seemed to have a more exciting life than the 2 of us, flying here and there, meeting clients, doing research etc, while YP is busy with her job, her church works etc. Think I have the most mundane and boring life, as compared to the both of them.

If I really do go to Japan for my postgrad, think I'm going to miss my friends most. The ability to just give them a call and easily arrange to meet up for lunch/tea/dinner.. The fact that we know each other for so long that we able to understand (and overlook) the habits/quacks/likes/dislikes, and the way we just accept who each other as they are. Don't think I'll be able to make friends like them. It scared me to think that I need to repeat myself all over again to new friends in order for them to see who I am. Thus I really believe that friends made during Uni are the ones for keep for life.. 祝福你，伊屏！！

One of the WOW gang now...

I've officially joined the world's largest MMORPG, World of Warcraft...

Tried the 10-day trial over the new year's weekend, and got kinda hooked. So I've decided to join in the fun. This is really a game to play long term. There is no way to 'finish' playing the game, so to speak, as there are way too many things to try and experience.

So far, I've created a character, a female human paladin in one of the Oceanic PvP
server. I will definitely create and try out other races and classes in a PvE server. I joined that PvP server cos all my friends are there, and it's more fun playing with people you know in real life. Personally, I don't like PvP servers as I dislike the notion of killing other players or being killed by other players. I just want to do my quests and maybe once in a while when i feel like it, join other players killing monsters, do instances, do battle ground or do raids. I want to learn things and explore places at my own pace. Although it is good to have friends with high level characters to help leveling up my characters by helping to clear instances, show me how to get my quests done, but sometimes it felt as if I'm imposing on them to help. In this MMORPG, I like the fact that it is still possible to level up a character by just grinding, i.e. just keep killing mobs within the same area over a long period of time, without help from other players. I can explore many places and, when I feel like it, stop at one place and grind for a while before moving on to other place/quest...

Although I've subscribed to the game, I will not be playing it 24/7 nor will I spend every waking non-working hour playing the game. I will limit myself to 2 hours on week nights and max of 6 hours on Sat & Sun. I will read books or do other non-gaming activities in between...